Sunday, March 8 , 2009 1:49 am

To: Me

From: Me

*Typed message to myself to copy into a text*

I’m done. It’s so empowering to be able to say that with such confidence and conviction. It lifts my heart so that I want to say it again…I’m Done. So beautiful is the world that you created for yourself. So lavish a bubble. You have spent so long creating this façade that everyone but you see through, that it seems to come naturally. I am finally to the point that rather than envy you, I pity you. How sad it must be for you when your own family cannot even help you see how pathetic you have truly become. Although I carry no more friendly feelings towards you, there is one emotion left…thankful. For now I look at my perfect children and see with utmost certainty that I have done great things. Thankful because you have set an example…An example of what to never let myself become. Thankful that I am the person I am today. Life is too short to hide unhappily in a happy front

From: His cousin

To: Me

ok just got yer email, totally sorry, i forgot yer birthday. we had to plan Ethans birthday with easter and shelbys birthday is tomorrow, and laila's birthday is in 2 weeks. trying to come up with fun cheap stuff to do. lol  it won't happen every year. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 

From: Me
To: His Cousin

LOL  no worries...EVERYBODY forgot my birthday this year, I wish I could.  How is everything? School is going great. I have the highest grade in the class still....plan on being Valedictorian...we'll see

From: His Cousin

To: Me

that's where *our daughter* gets it from. that doesn't surprise me, yer smart. i mean book smart. lol. everybody is doing really good, the kids are getting awards from school, so it looks like their gonna pass to the next grade. lol. so you didn't tell me, is your cell phone working? can't wait to hang out again. see ya. 

From: Me

To: His Cousin

yeah...cell phone is fine (unfortunately   lol  j/k) I have a week off in June....lets do something!

From: His Cousin

To: Me

 hey am, are you guys having a birthday party for *our daughter*? i wasn't sure, and i don't want to be forgotten.lol. let me k. Later 

From: Me

To: His cousin

yeah...we are sending out the evites tonight...

we were still arguing about where and when   lol

(and you could NEVER be forgotten so shut it)

From: Me

To: SIL

hey...so is *BIL* not going to the party? Just trying to get a finalized head count.... 

From: SIL

To: Me

Oh I’m a retard.  Yes, he’s coming. 

From: His cousin

To: Me

I know your super busy, but what does kaylee like? is she into something right now, clothes, a band, i'm so lost, i have no idea what to get her. is she to old for toys? please help. 

From: Me

To: His Cousin

lol  she loves Demi Lovato....she always loves art stuff. We have a bin that we just keep replacing with like construction paper, paint, pipe cleaners, etc. She loves making stuff. Ummm...oh totally into chapter books...young ones but still chapter books.

I'm sorry I haven't written in a while...kinda going through a tough spot 

Can't wait to see you and the kids!  (oh and *Her Husband* too)  LOL  j/k

From: Me
To: SIL; Best friend; MIL; His aunt; My grandma; His cousin; My uncle; Best Aunt; His cousin 

Hi guys,

For those of you who I haven't been able to call yet, Kaylee fell off of the monkey bars on Friday, landing with her right arm behind her where her elbow instantly swelled to the size of a grapefruit. We took her to St. Jude ER where they confirmed that is was not only broken, but in need of immediate surgery. We got transferred to CHOC where they did surgery that night.

She now has 3 metal pins holding her bones in place (right above her wrist, halfway up her forearm, and halfway up her upper arm) along with a bright, neon pink cast. The cast is split down the middle for the first week to allow for swelling. We go back next week and they will close the cast. Her pins stay in for 4 weeks and the cast stays on for 6.

She was so amazing. Despite everything, she remained perfectly composed and totally respectful. All the nurses and doctors couldn't stop complimenting her. They couldn't believe that after surgery, up until we left, she insisted she was in no pain and took no additional medicine. They kept bringing her treats and stuff because she was the "most pleasantly wonderful patient ever".   lol

I spent the night with her in the hospital and she got released yesterday around noon. She spent yesterday just sleeping off the excitement of the previous day as well as the anesthesia. Now that she is awake with me this morning, she is doing great and looking forward to school tomorrow! Can't wait to show off already! (although she did finally give in and take some of her prescription this morning)

Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts during this stressful time!

From: MIL

To: Me

Hi,

I am glad she is doing well.  I was hoping you guys will make it yesterday; we even went to get stuff to BBQ.  Maybe we get to see her on her birthday.  Is her birthday party still on?  I won’t be able to stay for long, because it is the same day as Jessi’s prom and she has a few things that we need to take care of, like makeup and hair, but David and Jason will be there the whole time. 

Hope to see you guys soon.

From: Me
To: MIL 

Hi!

Yeah, she is doing better now. The medicine had her throwing up constantly. Talked to the doc and he said that if her pain was ok, he wanted her to try to take just regular Tylenol, so thats what we did today and she did amazing. We are going to try school tomorrow with strict instructions for her and the school. Its certainly been a pretty rough couple days and I'm so glad to have her back to normal Kaylee.

The actual "birthday" part of the party won't be very long because many people are commuting or have other plans. Like the Evite said, we will aim to have everyone getting there around 11 with us eating at 12. Then go right into presents, cake, pinata, etc pretty close after so that the people who need to leave early won't miss anything.

I miss you guys!

From: MIL

To: Me

Hi *Me*

I am going to get *Our daughter*’s present today, but I am not sure what to get her.  Would you give me an idea?  I was thinking cloth, because she is so fashionable.   Let me know.

From: His cousin

To: Me

hi pregnant one. i'm so glad i'm not the last one having babies. lol. i can't stop thinking about the bun in the oven. all the stuff you gave me i gave to the good will when i was done using it, except for the baby einstein bouncer ethan doesn't use it anymore so if you want it you could have it back. if not i'll give it to the good will.  I so thought you guys were done having babies. i'm so happy yer not. lol. i'm not gonna believe you guys anymore. you guys want a lot babies. you have to have four now, hoots right, you can't have an odd number. i so wish we lived close by. i have some baby crap if you want it.  let me know. late

From: Me

To: His Cousin

It was awesome seeing you guys at *Our daughter*'s party. Definitely want to plan a camping trip. My OB appt and ultrasound is this Friday. As soon as I know anything, I will call you. Kinda worried though, been having some cramping and one day last week I spotted a little. The doc said just keep an eye on it and he will see my Friday. Ugh

I know *His niece* is getting older fast it seems. it was like after she turned 10 the time just went faster and faster.

well i heard *Little SIL*'s gonna have a 80s party. wasn't she born in like 91? lol. oh well....can't go i'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled. that's gonna be fun. lol. what are the days that you have off agian? 

From: Me

To: His Cousin

OMG I am so bummed you are not going...I figured that if anybody could rock the 80s, it would be us lol. Sorry about your wisdom teeth, that sucks!

I am off as of right this very minute and I go back Monday, June 29th. Probably taking the kids fishing Monday. So far, that all we have planned   :-)

From: His Cousin

To: Me

 well i changed my mind, i am gonna go. so we will be rockin out. Lol. 

From: Me

To: His Cousin

ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?!? PROMISE?!?!?! Really, it would be soooo much cooler if you were there…

My  mom is letting the baby spend the night...yay!

From: CustomerCare

To: Me

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From: Me

To: Him

*Forwards previous email from cable company*

OMG!!!

i tried to post this on your blog...but i was having troubles...so im emailing you instead!

Dear Lover of Mac & Cheese, 

To say the least your situation sucks...

But I want to tell you that you are a NATURAL born story teller. I would buy your book. Please don't stop writing, its a gift, truly. I'm so glad you (well I) started this blog. :) 

But really, I hope everything works out with the baby (*His nickname* the 3rd)

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

 OMG too funny! *His nickname* the 3rd..uh no! 

From: Me
To: Nursing School Administrator
Cc: Instructor 

Due to numerous issues with this pregnancy, I need to go on early maternity leave, effective tomorrow, 07/10/09 with the letter from the doctor. What are the necessary steps to do that?

Thank you so much,

Me

From: Instructor

To: Me

Cc: Nursing School Administrator

We don’t have an LOA.  You have to withdraw and  apply to re enter when ready.  We withdraw you in good standing, though, so it is usually not a problem to return, provided there is space.

*Name* our Student Services Director is your contact to re enter. 714-xxx-xxxx

I will keep you in my prayers for good health for both of you.

Keep me posted.  I look forward to your return.

From: Nursing School Administrator

To: Me

I hope you are doing well. I understand you have had to withdraw, due to complications with your pregnancy.

How far along are you? Give me a call or E-mail when you are ready to return to the VN program.

We are here to give you all the support possible.

From: His cousin

To: Me

(Subject: are you having twins?)

Hi girl,

I emailed you a while ago about the bouncer. do you want it back? *His cousin's son* doesn't use it anymore and since your having another baby I thought you could use it again. The time is gonna go by so fast when you need it you'll be glad you have it.  I've been putting off giving it to the good will.... I'll hold on to it for you, until I go down there. let me know. k. later

From: Me

To: His cousin

Ugh, no not having twins  lol

As for the jumper, lets wait a bit. I'm having some "issues" with this pregnancy. My blood pressure is through the roof, I have way too much protein in my urine, and the doctor thinks I may have preeclampsia. I'm cramping alot but not bleeding. The baby looks ok so far so they aren't too worried until I hit 20 weeks. I go to the doc in 2 weeks for another checkup. It has been a nightmare.

From: His cousin

To: Me

 Oh i'm sorry i had no idea that was happening.. I hope everything will be ok. How many weeks are you? 

From: Me

To: His cousin

Everytime I go in, they give me a diff date...When I went last week, they said 13 weeks...I go back next week for another doc appt, more labs, and another ultra sound..we'll see 

From: His cousin

To: Me

I thought you go to school? The doctor didn't put you on bed rest? you probably wouldn't stay still anyway. lol.

we should hang out again. If your at home and bored you should call me k. i'm here

Sorry about the delay in getting back to you.

I am currently 14 weeks pregnant. Due to the preeclampsia, I will be unable to return until I deliver (hopefully in January but possibly sooner if necessary).

Thank you so much for all of you help.

*Me*

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

 hey we are going to the fair tonight? wanna go????? 

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

what time? *He* has a lesson from 630-730 so he wont be home until about 8 

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

there are some mma fights at 730...so we are going around 7 i think... 

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

oh ok.....next time then! bummer.

I am soo ready for a night out....he and I are done. Will explain later.

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

*Funny rhyming of my name*-

oh no that doesn't sound good! ahh...

well we are still on for next weekend :)..sat..dont know what time? whatcha think?

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

Anytime....just let me know.

As for me and *Him*, yeah, we are pretty much done. We had a huge fight and he finally came out and said it....the only reason why he is still here is because he has to be. He said he doesn't love me anymore but he can't leave because he knows I can't survive financially with the kids. Which is funny since he never works. We haven't spoken since. Its so tense and uncomfortable around the house right now.

Oh, and he turned that job down. His dream job at that aquarium place. He said he met Magic Johnson and Ron Pearlman (Hellboy). The job is perfect! They even give you a truck! But he said he couldn't handle the commute...because he has all these other options right now....NOT! So, we are back to square 1 with only 2 more unemployment checks left.

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

OMG...no way ... I can't believe he said that to you. What are you going to do? There's no way your grandmother could help or someone? Im so sorry, you really do need the night out! Its gotta be so hard cuz u arent workin or going to school and he isn't doing anything so you are together all day! geeze. I wish I could do something for you, I feel really bad, I can't imagine being stuck like that. y the F*ck would he turn down the job...r u kidding me! it doesn't make any sense...how far is the communte? I mean does it really matter how far it is though?? where did he meet magic?  What options is he talking about? his parents?

*Class drama update*

hows the pregnancy goin? you have a dr appt coming up?

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

LOL that is one of the things I definately DO NOT miss....*a different nursing school student*. I am loving my peaceful lunches  :-)

I printed out the Metro rail options for him this morning...dropping hints  lol

My doctor appt is Tuesday and I have an ultrasound Thursday. Was thinking about swinging by Thursday before my appt to meet you guys for lunch.

As for him, my blood pressure is already dangerously high. I am not allowing myself to react. I had to take a deep breath, accept it, and just do what I can every day. It is very humbling and I am definitely far from happy but I can't break down like I would like. It won't help the situation and could only harm the pregnancy. We are just avoiding each other which, honestly, is kinda nice and quiet.

His sister's two kids baptism is tomorrow (I guess that would be our nephews  lol). I'm kinda torn. He NEVER goes to my functions but I'm always expected to go to his. When I don't show, everyone gets all put out like I'm being rude and antisocial. Well, if we truly are done, I shouldn't care right? I don't want to go but I still feel obligated...ugh

So, seriously, how is class? Is she still just glazing over the outline or is it getting better? Doing anything interesting in clinicals yet? Man! I miss it sooooo much!

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

Well that is a far drive, but I remember my father driving over 1hr30min every day for over 2 years for work...you just have to set your priorities and make things work...

as far as the baptism, i wouldn't go. that's just me though...especially if you don't wanna go, I mean make it uncomfortable for him...lol

*Class drama update*

please come by on thursday...even better meet us at the resturant that why *the other nursing school student* wont even know...ok thats too mean...lol

From: His cousin

To: Me

Well did you have fun on sunday, how did it go? I want to call but i'm afraid you might be busy or hoots there. how is the baby in your belly? KIT. 

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

LOL sorry about the post...ended up getting totally caught up with *Our oldest son*. After they left, *He* said he would be back after the baptism to pick up the baby so he could take him back to the lunch thingy being held afterwards. I gave him a super long bath (first one with bubbles, thank you johnson and johnson) and then we played. Was going to blog after he got him so the baby wasn't bored with me typing away. We ended up playing so hard for so long, we both laid down about 530-6ish and woke up around 8! lol  They were already home. ooops  The baby still ate a huge dinner and went back to bed at 9 like a champ. I am sooo lucky   :-)

*Class drama*

As for Thursday, the Italian place it is. Oh and *He* has been squirting royal tears about the P90x discs. Now all of the sudden he wants to use them....riiiiight. I don't want them back because he will either just tuck them away or probably end up selling them on ebay lol Anyhooo....is there anyway that I can burn them for you or something? Its one less ammo for our arguments. I am sooo sorry he is being stupid about it now. Under any circumstances, I would just ignore him but I don't want to involve you in our fights   lol  Man, I hate him!

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

no its no problem at all! I will bring em on thursday...its not worth u havin to deal with him...lol...*Her husband* and I will fine somethin else...its cool really.

*Class drama update* 

ill write more tomorrow...i should have been asleep 2 hrs ago!!!!!!

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

*Class drama*

As for the P90x...I will buy some blank discs and then burn them if you want...just let me know

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

well im anxious to hear how the OB appointment went! Let me know, hope all went well.

*Class drama update*

From: Me

To: His cousin

LOL weeeellll....I didn't go. I was very proud of myself for putting my foot down. He, of course, left the baby home with me and I'm sure he told his family a lie about why I wasn't there but oh well. He can't tell me that he hates me and wants a divorce but can't leave because I'm pregnant and have no way to support the kids. He says he is trapped here and he is miserable. Yet unemployed. That certainly doesn't motivate me to attend family functions as a fake stepford wife....especially to ones for  *SIL*  whom I am so over being fake with. Blah

As for my little bebe in my belly...it is doing good. 

I had a doc appt Tuesday. My blood pressure went down but the protein in my urine went way up. I have no idea why but they said "we will keep a close eye on it". Uh ok. I lost 4 lbs since my last appt but you couldn't tell   lol My ultasound today was great. The baby is perfect but they couldn't figure out the sex because it was wiggling so much. Making an appt at a place in Costa Mesa where you pay $25 and they do an ultrasound and tell you the sex. I can't wait another 4 weeks until my next one so I'm going earlier.

*Our daughter* has her last appointment with her orthopedist Monday for her elbow to double check it healed properly. She still can't straighten it out all the way but she's been babying it so we'll see.

*He* is still unemployed and is still just "playing" on the computer all day. Ugh...enough said.

So.....how are you guys? Weather killing you yet?   :-)   How's the house hunting going? I am so jealous, I promise!

As for calling me, call me all the time! He will be teaching at a baseball camp tomorrow from 10-3. Other than that, he usually has lessons at night, but I know *Her husband* is home then and I don't want to cut into your family time. Meanwhile, just keep writing me little love notes  lol

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

Hey, want to go to the fair next weekend instead of the movies? Just an idea. Looking for a way to go since *He* doesn't want to....of course 

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

hey u comin tonightttt??? u need a night out preggers!

From: SIL

To: Me

( Subject: BlizzCon 2009 Badge Confirmation )

Parking is going to be a bitch, so you may want to come on Thursday night to pick up your badges.  I think I might need to print out Kaylee’s on site.  The guy who ordered it for me didn’t update her name, so I’ll need to fix it.

On Friday the doors will open at about 9:30 but the opening ceremony will not begin until 11:30.  D3 will be open for demo but WoW will not until about 12 noon.  There’s not much to do before then except wait in line to get into the hall and get a good seat for the opening ceremony.  (Again, parking is going to be a bitch.)  The contests begin at 6:30 that evening and are a ton of fun to watch.  People are nuts.  Those usually go until about 9pm.

On Saturday the doors open at 10am.  All activities are open at this time.  Final concert begins at 7:30 and will most likely last until about 9:30.

The halls close at 10 on both nights.

From: CustomerCare

To: Me

*Time Warner Cable Bill Notification*

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From: Me

To: SIL

LOL ok cool..ty!

yeah, it looks like Friday its just going to be me and *Our daughter* since *He* finally starts work next week. My mom doesn't get off work until 330 so I will drop off the baby to her and *Our daughter* and I will head over. Then on Saturday, my mom is watching both kids so *He* and I can go alone. He is so excited for Ozzie....like a little kid  :-)

Thinking I will just have my sister drop *Our daughter* and me off on Friday so we don't have to worry about parking so late in the day and then just pick us up after. Kinda bummed we won't be there for the opening ceremony but *Our daughter* doesn't mind, just as long as she gets to go. I told her I was going to wear the mask you gave her and she was mortified!  lol  She made me promise not to do anything embarrassing. hehehe

Soo....will you be there like last year? Maybe *Our daughter* and I can meet up with you on Friday when we get there or something? I know you are busy so no worries if you can't  :-)

From: Me

To: Him

*Forwards previous email from cable company*

Dude…

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

Guess what!! *He* got a call yesterday. He starts his new job Monday in Los Alamitos (only about 10min away). Good news, job...bad news, I'm home all day with no car. LOL the circle continues 

How is everything? class?  I miss it horribly!

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

Yeah i would love to do something else...*Different nursing school friend* wants to do game night at her place...i'm not sure yet if i can...i will let u guys know. Thats GREAT he got a job...wonderful for you guys! But stuck at home with no car is a nightmare! yuck...well hopefully soon you guys can buy another one. school is craziness...we have our first nutrition test  tomorrow...and im nervous! ahhh there is so much more info than usual, real its ridiculous. Well i betta get back to it!

talk to u later-

From: His cousin

To: Me

If I remember right I think you should be finding out what her having. Please call me or text I don't check my email that offten. I can't wait! KIT later

Hey stranger!

Yeah, my appt is tomorrow at 11am. My cell is still broken but I bought a new one this weekend and it should arrive any day now so I can't text. I will call you as soon as I get home, I promise! 

I am sooooooo excited!

From: His/My aunt

To: Me

 (Subject: It’s a Girl!!!)

NOT!!!! Heard through the grapevine that there's gonna be another *Our last name* boy! We are all gonna sign a petition not to allow you to name this child *His name*!!!

To: His/My aunt

From: Me

Not funny! Heard through the grapevine? I emailed you the second I found out! And it is soooo not going to be *His name*!  lol

From: His/My aunt

To: Me

I really didn't get an email..*SIL* sent me what she replied to you and that's how I found out....but I did notice my name on the list of people you sent it to, so I don't know what happened.  anyway what names have you guys been thinking about? How is everything going with the pregnancy? 

To: His/My aunt

From: Me

Well...my blood pressure has gone back down to normal (low 90s over low 60s) but the protein went sky high. I've been drinking so much water its ridiculous but thats not bringing it down so we are still "keeping an eye on it". I go back on the 18th for more tests. Other than that, I feel great. I have another ultrasound on the 27th.

As for names, I told *Him* I would like to compromise with something close to*His name* if he wanted, like*Our youngest son's name* or something. When he was SURE it was a girl, he didn't care what the boy name was that I picked out so he just agreed with me. Now that it IS a boy, he wants to decide the name. 

*He* is over the moon excited. When*Our daughter* first heard it was a boy, she immediately started crying from disappointment. I've explained that she is still my princess and is so perfect that it wouldn't be fair if she had a sister  lol. Also, this ensures she always gets her own room. She is now excited too. 

From: Grandma

To: Me

Let me know re *Our daughter* here; can stay all nite if she likes. (Fri) 

To: Him

From: Me

I like these, in this order..

1. *Our youngest son’s name*

2. Jack/Jax

3. Kody

4. Tyler

From: Me

To: Grandma

*Our daughter* and *Him* are going to that Blizzard Convention until 10 tonight. I am walking out the door (again).

It has been a CRAZY past couple of days! We are looking to move soon so I have been on the phone all day. Plus, I still haven't gotten my medicare card and its been longer than a month and they are starting to bill me personally so I've been on the phone with them forever too. Mix that in with walking to and from the grocery store and doing laundry and I just want to crawl under a rock at night.

Tomorrow, we are going to look at the apartments all morning and then dropping the kids off at moms when she gets home, around 4 or 5 ish.

I will post your eBay auction tomorrow so it will run through next weekend. 

Talk to you soon....I miss you!

To: Me

From: His cousin

I’M SO EXCITED ABOUT CAMPING, I THINK I’M GETTING RETARDED! 

From: Me

To: Him

*MIL* and I spoke and we planned on us going to their house for dinner for lasagna at 7pm tomorrow. Is that ok?

From: Him

To: Me

yup...no prob. Tell me about your mom…

From: Me

To: Him

oh yeah!

My dad came in before going to work to buy cigarettes. His card wouldn't work because he forgot to switch money from savings to checking. He just walked out and told my mom to pay for them. My mom had to call me and ask me to switch it for her so she could buy another pack on her lunch and then put them back on the shelf. Well, my mom's co-worker Debbie was watching the security tapes and told the boss. My mom is not worried because she paid for them a few hours later. I told her she should be worried because you can't do that!

We'll see.

To: His cousin

From: Me

Lol me too. Especially now that we have a truck… 

To: Grandma

From: Me

Sorry we have chatted. These past few days, I haven't been able to stop throwing up. I was able to move my OB appt to this afternoon. I've lost 10 lbs. Its been a pretty rough few days. Poor *Our daughter* has been wonderful helping with the baby. Hopefully, after the doc appt today, I should feel better. Will keep you posted.

From: Me

To: Him

My grandma keeps calling me and my mom asking how you liked your present. She was very excited for you to have it. Please email her (*her email*) or call her on your lunch (*her phone number*). It means alot. 

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

(Ideas for my sister’s upcoming wedding)

see the tables..i made this wheatgrass boxes for the tables...but it was that green and the rest is white, then i had some black

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

Sorry it took so long to get back to you. My sister is a stupid, selfish, %$@$%!!!!

My sister is being an a** and I'm not speaking with her until at least the wedding. She is a spoiled little brat who is just sitting back and expecting everyone else to do everything for her. She is seriously p*ssing me off. She told me "I asked you to find a photographer for free. I don't want to spend anymore money". She actually had the audacity to be put out by what we were going to do for her! A photographer for free?!!?? What princess planet does she live on? She also is asked me to try to get the DJ to not charge her. OMG! So my mom and I were supposed to go to my grandma's today to put the arch together and start covering it with flowers and stuff. I called my mom this morning and *My sister* is not going to help because she's tired. SHE'S TIRED!?! OMFG So, I went off on her and now she is crying and can't believe I'm being so mean and ruining her wedding. I'm just frusterated that I'm 6 months pregnant with a 1 year old and I'm the one putting in all the effort. She only works 2 nights a week and sleeps in until noon everyday and she hasn't done a single thing...literally, I am sooo not exaggerating. Ok, sorry I didn't mean to vent but it was either that or punch her in the face. I don't know how she got her head so high in the clouds but it is soooo frustrating.

So, long story short, she can find her own d*mn "free" quack of a photographer. Thank you though for jumping to my rescue. I can't do brunch Friday but Saturday I am taking *My daughter* (a girls only day) to go buy our shoes and then out to lunch or something.....want to join us?

From: Nursing School Friend

To: Me

Omg a free photographer! Is she smokin crack!!!! Lol...damn...and I'm probably the cheapest she is gonna find...lol. Well her loss I guess. I understand its her day, but part of getting married is being there through the process. I wanted to be hands on/pick out everything, but I guess everyone is different. She will be upset later, you just have to know you did everythin a sister should do and more! What about his family? Are they helpin you guys out? 

Yeah I could meet sat for sho. Lol. Just text me the time and place and I'll b there...and I promise the P9654000X will be with me!  

Don't get to stressed...ur pregnant! 

Btw...where did she get the idea of free dj??? Lol but I do have an idea...if you have an ipod full of good music and a speaker (a big one) then just hook it up, make a playlist and ur done. Then you can say.."its free"...I have a pretty big/loud ipod speaker...if you want to use it. 

See you sat!

From:His cousin

To: Me

(*the entire email was in the Chargers team colors*)

aaawwww. sorry..... chargers lost. Is *His nickname* ok? Just tell him expect more of that this year, with a quarterback like that.

like the chargers colors? 

(this doesn't mean i'm a raider fan) lol

rofl   that is sooo funny. Sorry, I didn't check my mail yesterday. I overdid it at the wedding on Sunday and then helping my mom clean up yesterday that I was in bed with contractions all night and this morning. Finally able to get out of bed and walk without falling over in pain. I'm such an idiot. I need to be chained down, I think 

From: Me

To: My Mom

(Regarding my upcoming baby shower)

Ok, so attached is the party platter info. Thinking about just getting one of each. What do you think?

Also, to see the rough draft of the invitation, go to evite.com, go to login

username: *my email*

password: *old generic password that I used for absolutely everything*

The top one marked draft is it. Click on it and edit as you see fit. I expect the party planner will get back to me tomorrow and I will keep you posted.

xoxo

From: My Mom

To: Me

PERFECT...(now lol)

I will call you in a bit....running some debtors errands...LOL

From: Poker Friend

To: My Mom, Me

 I am unable to open evites at work but please know I will be there 

From: Me

To: Poker Friend

The baby shower is at Dave and Buster's at the Irvine Spectrum on Friday, October 23rd at 7pm. Karaoke starts at 8pm. Appetizers will be served but its BYOD (buy your own drinks). Since there is alcohol, this is a girls/adults only celebration.

Also, if there is anyone that I forgot to invite, please spread the word.

The *my last name* are registered at Babies R Us.

Please feel free to call or email me with any other questions,

*My mom*

*Phone number

*Email

From: Poker friend work (SP)

To: MIL, Me, 6 other poker friends

Hi ladies,

Its been a long time since we've just hung out with the girls.  I'd like to invite you to my house this Sunday for a pool day.  We can hang out by the pool all day and catch up.  Let me know if you can make it.  If I've left anyone out please forward this on.

From: Me

To: Him

*Forwarded previous email of the pool party invite*

 Can I go? 

To: His Aunt

From: Me

Hi *His Aunt*,

I talked to *His cousin* this morning...she said that she couldn't go because you weren't going....please go!!!!  I need you guys!! I miss you sooo much and it would be soo much fun! Its on Friday so you can sleep in the next day and its late enough so it doesn't matter if you work late, we will be there until it closes which is around 1am.

Pllllleeeeeaaaaasssseee go!!!!

From: Him

To: Me

HELL TO THE FUCKING NO! LOL.jk I don't care, but im sleeping in all day saturday. So don't even bug me. 

From: Nursing school Friend

To: Me

hey i follow this blog everyday...love it! and i read one of the post from a guest mom..and immediately thought of you and your humor...so the next time *He* is complaining you can thank me for this comeback. the blog is designmom.com

Advice for women who are too pregnant to function anymore-

Inevitably your husband will come home to find you unable to move under the weight of this gigantic fetus you are carrying and will want to know why the house is a mess and dinner isn't made and then you'll want to stab him because this is all his fault but you don't have the energy to find a clean knife.

And you'll want to explain how completely exhausting being pregnant is but men never understand so whenever Victor would say "How can you be tired? You hardly did anything today!" I'd respond, "I made someone's ear canals today. Inside my stomach. Without even using my hands. What did you do today? Paperwork? God, how exhausting. I MADE SOMEONE'S NERVOUS SYSTEM."

Then my husband would walk away, suitably impressed. Or scared. Either way he left me alone. And this is how you have a successful marriage.

have a good one! oh and im still waiting on wedding details!

From: Me

To: Nursing School Friend

ROFL  that is soooo great!

Duh, completely forgot about the wedding...its been so busy lately that its already out of my mind  lol Well, the folding chairs didn't match, the cake melted because of the blistering heat so it was crooked, and we ran out of water...and that was before the wedding!  lol 

To: Him

From: Me

(forwarded his Progressive Car insurance payment reminder) 

To: *Local church venue*

From: Me

Good Afternoon,

My husband and I are looking forward to our 10th anniversary (June 23rd, 2010) and planning on a vow renewal ceremony.

We are looking to have the ceremony on Saturday, June 27, 2010 and was wondering if the church had availability for this and what I would need to do to make this happen.

Thank you so much for everything and I look forward to hearing from you soon,

*Me*

To: Him

From: Me

(forwarded Red Ribbon Week Agenda from the school) 

From: MIL

To: Me

Is the Baby shower Friday or Saturday and at what time?  I forgot to write it on my calendar and I can’t find the e-mail.  Please let me know

From: MIL

To: Me

I text *Poker friend* last night to see if she was going but she didn’t text me back, so I just got an e-mail from her saying that because she can’t bring *Poker friend’s daughter* that she won’t be able to make it…..what’s wrong with this people?!?!

I understand about *SIL* because of work, but *His aunt* started to get me mad that she keeps saying yes (even showing excitement) and then turns around and says no…. I don’t get it.   I don’t understand why people say yes right away without thinking it thru.  Any way, can you tell I am mad :# ?

Any way, let’s have fun and celebrate *Our youngest son*.  Let’s party!!!!!!!!

One question, since I am kind of poor right now (20% pay cut and &FIL*’s car payment) what are the things that you really need for baby *Our youngest son*.

From: Me

To: MIL

Yeah..kinda bummed because I miss everyone and thought it would be fun. I am happy, though, because the 3 people that I wanted to be there the most (you, my mom, and my sister) will be there. That makes it worth it!

I'm driving my mom and sis so they can drink and have fun. This is still going to be great

(*Plot twist...my mom and sister decided to come separately in there own cars and then neither showed up*)

From: Me

To: Him

(forwarded his Progressive Car insurance payment declined)  

From: Me

To: MIL, His cousin, His/My Aunt, His Aunt, SIL, Grandma

I woke up this morning feeling funny and it progress into feeling like I was going to start my period. I finally called the doc because I thought I passed my mucus plug but I'm only 32 weeks. She told me to come in so she could check it out. I'd been having contractions regularly every couple minutes and had already dilated to 1cm. Of course, they gave me the shot to stop it (which sucked because it was in the back of the arm). She jokingly said "thank goodness you came in tonight or you may have woken up cuddling with your new baby".....ummm ewww. Anyways, I guess he heard that *His cousin* was trying to have her baby early and since he is my baby, he must have my competitive gene   lol

Needless to say, his efforts were thwarted again until Christmas...then I have the green light.

From: His Aunt

To: Me

wow, hang in there......and take care of yourself, boys like to stay in the womb as long as possible....LOL. 

From: Me

To: His Aunt

not this one! sheesh...he is already clawing is way out   lol 

From: MIL

To: Me

Wow! That’s crazy. Maybe *My son’s name spelled incorrectly* will be born on December 27th. 

From: SIL

To: Me

Oh my God.  If you have another baby the same day as one of our friends again…I’m gonna lose it!  We have a friend who is due around the 20th!

From: Me

To: MIL

LOL  that would be funny...all of the kids born by someone else's birthday 

From: Me

To: SIL

LOL I was thinking more along the lines of your dad's birthday....but I would rather aim for your friends! 

From: Me

To: SIL

Hey...just wanted to find out what time you had in mind for Christmas Eve. Seems like everyone is trying to make plans so we are attempting to fit it all in.

What I was thinking was my grandma's in the morning, *His Aunt’s* in the afternoon and the you guys in the evening. We are doing your folks and my folks on actual Christmas.

Is like 7ish too late?

From: SIL

To: Me

7 sounds perfect. Do you want to say 7:30 just to be safe? 

From: Me

To: SIL

Yay that would be awesome...ty! 

From: Me

To: MIL

As for Saturday, I talked to *Him* and he said he had planned on going just him with *FIL* so if you and I do something, I will have the kids. Unfortunately, I think that means New Moon may be out ( I am soo bummed!)

Let me know if you still want to do something...I am open to anything

From: MIL

To: Me

I don’t think there is much that we can do with the kids on a Saturday night.  I let you know if I think of something. 

From: His Cousin

To: Me

(Subject: Can you still see your toes?"

Is there any movies that *His nickname* wants? 

From: Me

To: His Cousin

LOL other than porn?  j/k   ummm he has pretty much the same taste as you guys so whatever you guys would think is funny, he would love.

and no...I can't see my toes   lol

(included pregnant pic of myself)

From: His cousin

To: Me

how about a funny porn? lol that would be weird, they wouldn't know what to feel, happy or horny. Lol 

From: Me

To: Dad, Mom, My Grandma, My Uncle, His/My Aunt, SIL, His Cousin, His Cousin, MIL

(Inserted picture of my son and daughter sitting on Santa’s lap. He looked very nervous)

*My son’s nickname* was not loving this  lol   He wanted to talk to him but didn't want to sit on his lap. The only way we could get him to do it was to hold *My daughter*'s hand

From: SIL 

To: Me, Dad, Mom, Grandma, My Uncle, His/My Aunt, His Cousin, His Cousin, MIL 

 (She inserted a picture of her boys on Santa’s lap. They were both screaming hysterically and trying to get off)

Oh yeah, well check this one out! My kids LOVED Santa!

From: Me

To: Dad, Mom, Grandma, My Uncle, His/My Aunt, SIL, His Cousin, His Cousin, MIL

 ROFL maybe if *Younger SIL* dresses up like Santa next time, it wont be so bad 

From: Me

To: Dad, Mom, Uncle, Grandma, MIL, SIL, His cousin, His cousin, His aunt, His/My aunt, Him

How this all started was *Our daughter* was bored Sunday. I gave her the Sunday paper and told her to go through the ads and make a Christmas list for me. I already know what I'm getting her, but figured it would be something for her to do.

I had to share this list with you...it is hilariously too cute. I am going to spell the things exactly how she did so your heart will melt like mine.

• A puppy
• A cat
• A red skinny dress
• A black puffy dress
• My own Christmas tree
• A patch of diffrent color flowers
• To be a teacher
• A overcoat thats black and red
• A limo ride
• To be on American Idle
• A necklace with only one small diamond
• A toy bowen arrow
• A laptop
• A Samsung Alias
• Electric Scooter
• Pink Vivitar Digital Camera
• New Moon things
• A blue bike with white patterns
• A iPode
• A green dress with white pokadots and a blue ribbon across the waist
• To be older
• To have a suprise party
• A new pair of Christmas earings
• Sing at a concert
• NO MONEY!
• A small diamond

She had me cracking up by how specific and random some of these are. I couldn't believe she said no money. The concept behind the diamond is *His* mom. She said that her spirit would be in the diamond because it is "clear and beautiful" and she would like to have a diamond so she could always be close to her.

From: His Cousin

To: Me

oh my gosh, that is cute. get her a diamond. I love that. 

From: My Dad

To: Me

Well, being a good papa, I'm going to get her the FIRST thing on her list! 

From: SIL

To: Me

Okay, so the gift I bought her is not even on there.  Bedding.  I just bought it on Sunday.  It’s pink with a little bit of yellow, you know, her favorite color. 

From: Me

To: His Cousin

Yeah, we already decided to do that…it means alot to her. 

From: Me

To: My Dad

 ROFL  doh!  It better be like Biscuit! :-) 

From: My Aunt

To: My Uncle, Dad, Me, My Sister, My Cousin, My Other Aunt’s Boyfriend

Hello from *My Aunt* ~ 

I propose we communicate via email "forward all" to keep us informed, ask questions, and arrange stuff regarding my Momma's cancer of the pancreas. I will share what *Mom* told me yesterday, and would appreciate any corrections in my understanding (*Mom*) of the current situation. Mom met yesterday with the surgeon who told her that the first or second Wednesday in January will be the day of surgery, entailing a hospital stay of a week. The objective is to remove the part of the pancreas that is the cancer. However, if it is discovered that to do this would endanger any other organ or artery, then the surgeon will "back out immediately." No discussions yet on what happens after the surgery.

Please pray whenever you think of Mom for her, the surgical team and hospital personnel, and for God's Blessings.

I love you all. Oh, and I don't have an e-mail address for *My Uncle*. If there are others you would like to include in our e-mail "forward all" please do.

(*Original message that was below*)

*My Aunt* – thank you.  

I am thankful *Mom* was able to be with *Grandma* when they talked with the surgeon.  I talked with *Grandma* Tuesday evening.  Pretty much the same as you have conveyed.  *Grandma*  told me the day of surgery would be a Wednesday and the surgeon should know within a couple of days the date of surgery, hopefully 6th or 13th Jan.  He may have to remove all of the pancreas, or partial, or nothing, of course not knowing until he can see what the necessary and safest procedure should be.

Once we know the date of surgery, I will fly in, probably the night before.  I’ll work out where to stay – possibly *Grandma*’s  if room, or *My Great Uncle*’s brother in Brea.  Will firm this up before travelling.  I sent out a large distribution email after learning of the diagnosis.  *My Grandma*  and all family are being prayed for all across the United States.  I have received lots of replies and have copied some of them into an email I sent to *Grandma* .  Prayers are being lifted every day by so many prayer warriors – I am so thankful!

Matthew 18:19-20  (New Living Translation)  - “I also tell you this – if two of you agree down here on earth concerning anything you ask for, my Father in heaven will do it for you.  For where two or three gather together because they are mine, I will be right there among them”.  The Bible makes it clear that God gives us authority in order to bring His will to earth, not to bring our own will to pass.  As believers, we have spiritual authority and we should exercise it.  One of the ways we do that is in prayer.  God desires to use His surrendered servants to pray His will down from heaven to earth, as we are taught by Jesus to pray:  ‘Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven’ (Matthew 6:10).  What an awesome privilege.  Our prayers can affect our own lives as well as the lives of other people.  God can use us to help them experience the fullness of all He has planned for them in life.

Love to all
*My Great Aunt*
Her Address, phone number, and fax number

From: My Aunt 

To: My Uncle, My Dad, Me, My Sister, My Cousin, My Aunt’s Boyfriend

 It is scheduled for Jan. 13 - *My Great Aunt* is flying out. 

From: Grandma

To: Me

(Regarding the pic of the kids with Santa)

 *Me*, this is so cute! I need a small one to add to my kitchen-bar-wall of Santa Kids, pls… 

From: Me

To: Grandma

Sure! I will go to mom's work and have a print made.

Grandma, I am really stressing about Christmas. I am freaking out because mom called me last night and said that *My Aunt*, *My cousin* and all them are coming up now too on Christmas Eve. I don't have presents for them. With the baby due any day now, its like the perfect storm.  *His*' work apologized about the Christmas bonus this year ($15 gift card to Target). I miss the good ol White Elephant days where we just brought one present lol Can I count myself as their present jk Well...hope everyone likes chocolate!

I love you Grandma and can't wait to see you Christmas. 

Hush, little one - You just be here with bells on and dont worry about 1 thing.....I'm fixin a pot of chilli, cornbread, etc.  U need to relax one day.  Love, Grandma.....  P.S. - it will be very nice, and NO ONE expects any gifts.  (remember what Christmas is really all about) 

From: Me

To: His Cousin

omg I'm dying. My grandma insisted on me bringing the kids over on Christmas even though they were both sick. Now she is sick and may have to postpone her surgery. Then I spent all day Saturday at the doc's hooked up to IVs and monitors. I have borderline pnuemonia and am sooo sick. It has been an absolutely miserable last few days. I can't drag my sick butt up off the couch.

How have you guys been?

From: His Cousin

To: Me

omg... you have serious stuff goin on. well....you know me I really missed you guys. but i understand. just when you thought you were gonna get out of getting sick with this pregnancy, you get sick. how's the baby? is it affecting him in anyway?   I hope I'll get a chance to see the baby. will you let me know when we could go and see him? I know you'll want to rest afterwards. I hope you'll feel better fast.

anyway....we had the fireplace goin, and we were trying to get *her son* to say fire...but of course he says fuck. so...i'm trying to get him to say hot. but he says fuck. i just hope nobody else will hear that.

From: Me

To: His Cousin

lol That is hilarious about the fire.

Yeah, doc called yesterday and said I'm borderline diabetic with this pregnancy. So, borderline diabetic, borderline pneumonia, and borderline insane!!! Both kids are getting better, *Our daughter* slower than *Our older son*. I'm just worried that I will be too sick for the surgery after I deliver. They better tie these tubes!  Ugh

Any plans for New Years? My mom called and said that she gets off work at 10:30pm New Years Eve and then they are driving to Pasadena to get a seat for the parade the next morning and invited me and the family to go...uhhh no. I don't want to sleep on the side of the street while I'm sick, and pregnant and with the kids. What a dork. Looks like its another night of just watching movies and probably falling asleep early   :-)  Man, I feel 30!  j/k

I gave birth to *Our older son* a week before Thanksgiving and felt great to take him over for the dinner at MIL’s so I'm hoping it will be the same again. Gimme about a week after I deliver and maybe we can meet at your moms or something. I feel bad making you drive all the way out here again. I miss you!

Alright, going to go smell the nyquil (since I can't take any) LOL